Have you ever wondered why, or even thought it to be unfair, to have so many problems in your life? I don’t know about you but I sure have. Just recently it seemed there were an unfair amount of challenges occurring in my life and as I prayed to God for answers and encouragement another stressor would appear. “What in the world am I going to do?” became a reoccurring theme in my thought process. “Why is all of this happening to me? What did I do or what is it that I am doing to deserve all of this? How can I make this work?” No answers, only dead-ends. I was overwhelmed.
Finally I reached my wits end and after arriving I wondered what took me so long to get there. It was not until I reached my wits end that I realized there is where I needed to be. The answers are not in me. I need help, not just praying and seeking God, of course, but also reaching out and sharing my burdens with my Kingdom family. I began to talk about it with my church and in addition, I opened up in an evangelical ministry course (TUMI) offered through Open Door Mission. In this course we as fellow classmates have become extremely close.
An amazing thing happened when I did this. I found that everyone seeking citizenship in God’s coming kingdom are also being tested. I discovered that they too are having financial problems, illnesses, and broken relationships. Many of us were also feeling overwhelmed. I felt relief as I identified God’s hand in all of it. We shared our challenges and we shared tears of joy with one another. Again I felt relief as I identified God’s hand in all of it. Sharing my trials with my family did not make them go away but, the clarity in recognizing that the precipice of the Lord is where he takes all of his chosen and then calls them back. I am blessed to be part of.
A psalm of Moses:
Make us glad according to the days wherein thou hast afflicted us,
and the years wherein we have seen evil. -Psalm 90:15
Men’s Emergency Services Coordinator